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Friday, September 25th, 2009
9:22 am
 Wow, it's been a while since I have written eh? 

I just got back from the airport. Marcus should be arriving in Chicago any moment now, and then he will be boarding for Tokyo. He will be in Japan for a bit over 3 weeks, and I will be there for a bit over 2. He looked so stressed! As typical of us, we have not planned much at all, and I think he started to freak out this morning when he realized that he was going to be in Tokyo, all by himself and trying to find his way by train to Kyoto! I gave him one of the 4 Japan travel guides I have been reading. By the time he gets to Japan I think he will know exactly what to do! Or maybe he was just stressed because of his talk, workshop presentation, and poster presentation. *smile* The exciting life of an academic!

I am so psyched to be starting our Japan trip in Kyoto. I need to devour some more books about the history and culture. Oh so lovely! Although, I can't say I am not nervous about getting lost. Apparently, my phone wont work in Japan, and they don't seem to be big on credit cards.

Anyway, I really am just procrastinating.... I should just stop sitting here and go for a run!

Monday, February 19th, 2007
10:48 pm
It's been a while
Wow, it has been over a year and a half since I have written.
So let's see what has changed in my life since:

1) Vesna ( our youngest kittie) died last summer (August, 2006) of a massive heart failure. We were heart broken.
2) We adopted a new kitten, Aleph. She is 7 months now, a real brat, and absolutely the most precious kitten in the world.
3) I am all graduated and now have my Masters degree
4) I work 3-4 days a week as a psychotherapist and I love it ( most of the time). Although some days are challenging, like today.

I can't think of anything else really. We seem to have become really social in the last year or so. Going out way too much. Marcus is now a PhD student. My brother is married.

I still keep thinking of going back to school ( even though I just graduated about 6 months ago). However, now that I am making good money the idea seems less attractive. I LOVE being a student, and have a million zillion research interests. But part of me keeps thinking that this will be another 4 years in school to eventually come back to do what I am doing now. Granted I should be able to make more money, but being that money doesn't tend to drive me much, that's not really an incentive.

Ok I am tired and i need sleep :)
Saturday, August 6th, 2005
1:17 am
oh duh
i forgot! yesterday, or maybe the day before yesterday. I am not sure what day today officially is!
Ah the hazards of being drunk

anyway August 4th, 2005: Marcus's and Liv's 5 years and n6 months anniversary.

we were making out like mad in the subway today. someone mentioned something about new love and infatuation. Glad to hear that we still look like puppies in love.

i can't help it! he is soooooo yummie :)

i really should go to bed, but i am hyper and marcus wants to read

i am tempted to go for a run!
1:03 am
i'm drunk
that's clear to me
my synapses are not transmitting at a normal rate
perhaps they are faster, or slower. i am not sure what alcohol does right now, i used to know such things
i have a degree that says that i should know such things
but all i can remember is GABA synapses, inhibittion cuz it is Chlorine and chlorine is an inhibitor and something about NMDA receptors.
oh the joys of being drunk
knowledges just pooofes away

i'm gelatinous right now
and i hope i spelled that right
marcus is reading
i have class tomorrow
and here i am drunk!

it's kind of fun
life has been so so so good lately. life should be made up of summers such as these

oh i wish i could write something interisting but i can't cuz i am drunk!

Saturday, July 30th, 2005
8:23 am
My birthday
Last night was so much fun! It was totally my best birthday ever to date :)
Maybe 25 wont be so bad ;)
Saturday, July 16th, 2005
9:38 pm
Wednesday, July 6th, 2005
12:09 pm
Lets cheer for PMS
I must say I was/am one moodie bitch today.

managed to alienate some people already. WOOHOO.

although i've been nothing but pleasent to Marcus and I am going out for tea with Tatijana.

I like this better. Before when I was this moody I used to take it out on the people I love. Now I seem to have reversed things. I get all bitchy with people I don't really care about, and manage to be all sweet to the ones I care.
Next steps in life: do not get bitchy
challenges: try not to be bitchy when your uterus is screaming and throbbing in agony!

Thank God Marcus loves his moodie bitchie Liv :)
Tuesday, May 31st, 2005
6:43 pm
today i am a weezer woman

If you want to destroy my sweater
Pull this thread as I walk away (as I walk away)
Watch me unravel i'll soon be naked
Lying on the floor, lying on the floor
I've come undone


toooooooo much to do!

Current Mood: distressed
Saturday, May 28th, 2005
3:21 pm
tried to save myself, but myself keeps slipping away
i am literally drowning in papers

i am very disorganized person, if i were to take a picture of my office now you would see piles and piles of papers scattered on my desk and floor. as well as plate of half eaten sandwiches and 3 mugs of tea and coffee, 2 empty bottles of water and a full bottle of water. as well as two cats ( one on my lap and one right beside the keyboard)

nin is blasting in the background ( the fragile)

my research proposal is almost done... just need to add small details like confidentiality agreements, a few missing references and additions to my appendices

if i don't die from a panic attack this week, i'm sure mexico will be grand

i just need to keep on working on these assignments and be in complete denial about how i wont even look at my thesis for another 2 weeks.

it is about time i act irresponsible i do believe.
Friday, May 27th, 2005
10:57 pm
you give me the reason
It comes down to this
your kiss
your fist

hmmmm nin :)

trent reznor is a god
7:29 pm
I have 4 assignments all due next week. Well technically they are due in 2 weeks but i will be in mexico by then!

I am so glad my supervisor is on vacation. I should be ashamed of how LITTLE i have done for my thesis. I am a very bad student

Current Mood: guilty
Thursday, May 26th, 2005
2:49 pm
This one is just for you
Hi giggles!

Dude it has been years since we had the evolution talk.

I miss you *hugs*
1:50 pm
you could have it all
It's so beautiful out!
I need to get my lap top in working order so I can go to the park and write papers.

Rox was so excited over my first client, that I got excited. I think this was a big event that I forgot to really make a big deal out of.

I will see my first trauma client in less than a month... yey I am finally on my last stretch towards being a therapist.

Jim I just read your blog and all I have to say is that I am totally psyched and excited for you. I'll definetly visit you in Chicago :):):) It is my kind of town *grin*

I fell asleep in the living room and I woke up in bed. Not sure if Marcus carried me or what.

we watched Star Wars III and I REALLY did not like it.

ok back to editing I must go!
Wednesday, May 25th, 2005
5:22 pm
i'll find my frog
i know i haven't written in a while :)
but i feel like writing now, because hmm well i should be studying

life is chaotic

after a few days in San Francisco, I arrived home and had to go to my first day of practicum.

I have seen my first client!

It wasn't so scarry after all.

I came home to a phone msg from my Roxxie devastated
my heart was totally broken
especially since i wasn't there for her when this happened.

she was cute and called me back after she had thought of a reason of why it was good that i wasn't there for her.

these last two weeks when sharon asked rox for a break, rox and i became even closer, and this is despite her new found religiousness and distance ( she is in Montreal now).

but i can't imagine rox without sharon... i know i have said this about andreas and rox before.... but ok other than the fact that i think that sharon is one of the most amazing people on earth, i had never seen roxana like this.

speaking of andreas, I think Andreas, Marcus and I are going to see Star wars tonight.

and i should be doing one of the zillion things I need to do... my thesis has not moved a single cm forever now. i'm a bad liv!

the worst thing is, is that I am itching to do some integrations and functions and derivations. I just feel so DUMB lately, I remember I once upon a time used to know cool things...
and now i can laugh for hours over this http://www.lostfrog.org/

this entry was a complete waste of my time, and yours as well if you chose to read it ...

nevertheless i cannot promisse that my next entry shall be time worthy

oh i just got an email from neo pets... i wonder if my lambda b is dead... i haven't taken care of her in years!

amazing the kind of things i have done in order not to be productive ;)

want to do something better with your time? take this quiz:

women and war
Monday, March 7th, 2005
2:34 pm
It's 2:15 pm
I woke up less than an hour ago
I slept in a lushiously warm bed, with my lover and my kitties
i have food in abundance
i study what i want
i go where i want
i laugh, smile and dance on daily basis
i have never been violated, physically or emotionally

it's all too easy to forget the world outside of my walls
much, much easier to forget the world outside my continent

if i had eaten breakfast, i am sure it would have been gone after looking at these pictures

my world is "safe"
theirs is horror

This is a link to amnesty international canada. Please take your time and write! I will as soon as I am done this post.
If you live in the states, write to your president

i myself am outraged that governments are spending all their money in iraq. yeah, the US fucked up the country, and yes they need to clean up their mess. However, we can't focus all of our attention at one place because of how convenient it looks (WMD's for example). The world closed their eyes to Rwanda, and focused all of the resources at Bosnia. Once again, the world seems only to focus on where they can gain the most ( oil or whatever).
Thousands of women have been gang raped, children have been multilated in Sudan for at least two years. Why aren't we protecting them?
Monday, August 2nd, 2004
9:06 pm
Thursday, April 22nd, 2004
7:20 pm
my convos make no sense
LivvyElf: hmmmm yak milk!
Mithrius: I just ordered some goat milk...is it good?
LivvyElf: will i get to ride a traminator in florida?
LivvyElf: i cant stand goat milk, it tastes like goat
LivvyElf: but cow milk tastes like cow lately too... so maybe its just me
Mithrius: when have you eaten goat?
LivvyElf: in my second -last life time... i used to be a goat keeper
Mithrius: goat keepers don't eat goat!
LivvyElf: i was a little bit of a sociopath as well
LivvyElf: :-(
LivvyElf: actually a goatopath
Mithrius: Is that like a dominatrix?
LivvyElf: Not nearly as much fun, but much furrier
Mithrius: traminators!
LivvyElf: lol this conversation started in traminators and ended in traminators. how fun!
Mithrius: very fun...7 days!

being in an office with windows, rocks :)

Current Mood: happy
Wednesday, April 21st, 2004
10:22 pm
the calm
i'm ridiculously tired
i haven't eaten in two days
i have hardly slept

i haven't studied although i have had 16 hours of lecture since sunday
i need to take out the garbage and that makes me grouchy, because marcus always does it
yes i am spoiled

i never understood those people who could work full time and study full time and do all those other stuff that people do. i never had that kind of energy

somehow it's ok
dont ask me how
but it is
i can work crazy hours ( worked from 8 am til 7 pm today), and be stressed all day from work (being a new corporate account executive and trying to pick up all the back log from half assed done work - not an easy thing)
i can go to school crazy hours
oh and i had a test on monday which i studied for hmm about 10 hours... i'm pretty sure i got a perfect on it though so it was worth it.

how the hell did this happen?
when did i get this type of life?
jim was teasing me saying how i had become the man
i guess its not really teasing.. it's the truth, i'm part of the system
how the hell did that happen?

i was (am) a spoiled brat. i didn't ever have to work in my life... i never had to put any effort to get money... i always got whatever i wanted... all i had to do was go to school and do well...
no one ever thought i had this kind of discipline, no one... not even me ( or perhaps especially me!)

so here
crossed legged
listening to VAST
reading Mrs Dalloway

I still have time for myself *smile* ... i haven't become one of those who live to work... no, no i haven't.

marcus just called
"don't worry sweetie, i'll do the garbage when i get home"
me: "how much more do you have to study?"
marcus: "i'll probably be done a midnight"

why the hell would he offered to take the garbage out so late?
i am way to used to putting people in my service... my poor boy.

ok i am going to get the bath ( and bubbles) going, while i go downstairs and take the garbage out.

i hope all is well with you my crazy one :)

Current Mood: exhausted
Saturday, April 10th, 2004
10:46 am
pretty eyes
i've been feeling uninspired to write
well not really uninspired... just terribly busy.
work and school are very consuming.
i love both :)
i got promoted at work on Thursday, which was totally surprising.
last night at 3 am, as I was being cuddled by my beloved, he asked me if I was happy.
i thought about it really hard.
i'm tired most of the time, i have almost no leisure time, we have no money for shopping.... hell yeah, i'm happy *smile*
i have two wonderful cats, a cool apartment, i do yoga and belly dance, i love my masters program, i love my job, marcus got accepted into an amazing graduate program
what else could i ask for?
true, there are moments that i'm terribly grouchy and discouraged
i am moody by nature, and i have this terrible infatuation with misery and darkness.
but his eyes ground me, one look into his big blue eyes, his caring adoring eyes, sooo loving and accepting, just one look into his eyes and i am reminded that i am happy.

anyway time to finish paper #1 (10 pages) and then hopefully start paper number 2 (25 pages)

Current Mood: sleepy
Tuesday, March 23rd, 2004
11:02 pm
tough lessons
i really must learn that i wont always excell in everything i do.
and it's not that i always do... i'm quite bad in alot of things. in fact i'm a terrible athlete ( except when it comes to dancing and martial arts), i'm a terrible singer, i'm a terrible speller and have horrible hand writing.
but the things i want, i get... and *shrug* i guess i just have to learn that i wont always get what i want.
i understand that, logically

but i dont like it!
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