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|Monday, March 22nd, 2004|
|the fairy in me
You are the tree-loving faerie. The Earth Faerie.
Nature is your friend, all the little animals
are cute and cuddly, even those that bite. You
are a strong friend, people have a tendancy to
go to you when they are feeling sad. You have a
motherly instinct and always want to kiss away
the tears. What's your inner Faerie? brought to you by Quizilla
|Saturday, February 28th, 2004|
|it's sunday and i am lazy
i'm so unmotivated, i have so much to do and so little will to do anything
I miss the sun
I miss the warmth
I can't wait till we go to brazil this end of the year... this year we will go!
ok happy thoughts! he is lovely :)( marcus and me :)Collapse )
|Thursday, February 12th, 2004|
atwood uses that word a lot
last week was entertaining, 4 years anniversary, huge yellow bouquet, and a near death experience.
i'm loving graduate school, i keep devouring my books. rox and i are full of ideas for our future
we have our future clinic already decorated and organized to the silliest of details
( like a rotating art exhibit, and the yoga room as well as the drama therapy room)
on our free time we are doing research for our future book.
she inspires me to be ambitious in ways that don't flow so naturally to me.
life is peaceful
happiness in abundance
busy busy busy
i wonder how you are my dear
|Wednesday, December 17th, 2003|
I just feel so overwhelmed over here. There is just such tremendous goodness in this office. We have 3 huge boxes full of presents for children. And 4 boxes ( and I do mean huge boxes) of food for charity. It just melts my heart, these people are too much. Everyone I know has taken a pay cut to be working here, and the extent of their generosity is inspiring. I feel so lucky to be surrounded by people who care about humanity and society, for the first time in my life I feel like I am surrounded by people who share my idealism and don’t give a shit about money.
It’s awesome. I guess it is the spirit of the season :)
back to work i go for now :)
I got accepted!
I shall be starting my counseling psychology masters in January :):)
Plus I did really well on my gre. :) yeyness Current Mood: bouncy
|Saturday, December 6th, 2003|
we just spent the night over at andreas's
we moved his bed around for him... he is doing remarkably well, but he is off the pain meds and is in pain
his cut is huuuuuuuuge... even though rox had told me it was big, i wasn't prepared to see half his torso slashed
it looks very neat though, the doctor did a great job
we watched love liza... loved it
i cried and was in pain the whole time
it probably was a bit too much... andreas really related to the main character.
he also drowned his pain after his mother died.
just with a different poison
love liza was a really great movie
the dialogue had no depth
the scenes were not always connected
but it said soooo much with so little
|NATIONAL DAY OF REMEMBRANCE AND ACTION ON VIOLENCE AGAINST WOMEN
Established in 1991 by the Parliament of Canada, this day coincides with the sad anniversary of the death of fourteen young women who were tragically killed on December 6, 1989 at l'École Polytechnique in Montréal because of their gender.
Beyond commemorating the loss of these fourteen young lives, this day represents a time to pause and reflect on the phenomenon of violence against women in our society. It is also a time to have a special thought for all the women and girls who live daily with the threat of violence or who have died as a result of deliberate acts of gender-based violence. Last but not least, it is a day for communities to reflect on concrete actions that each Canadian can take to prevent and eliminate all forms of violence against women and girls.
I did not see a single person wearing a white pin today at the LSAT. yey for lawyers wanna be! :P
|Friday, December 5th, 2003|
so i am still chewing my nails
i am still doing all the things i was going to try not to do
so yeah i suck
but interisting enough the month of november wasn't nearly as bad as i thought it would be :)
i feel i'm on to something... just not sure what yet :)
i have found my centre for the moment
|Friday, November 21st, 2003|
You are Julia Kristeva! You were a student of
Roland Barthes, and came up with such important
notions as intertextuality and abjection. You
are a semiotician, psychoanalyst, scholar of
literature, and dozens more things. You are not
dead. What 20th Century Theorist are you? brought to you by Quizilla
|Thursday, November 20th, 2003|
my immune system has shown to be a shithead for the nth time.
this is the second day that i am home from work and i just know things at work are chaotic
this is absolutly the worst week for me to be home sick!!!!
thats ok, i am still working from home as much as i can
i make the phone calls ( with lots of coughing, i am sure that makes ppl so happy to be talking to me :P)
i've written contracts
i am going stirr crazy
and while i could be studying for my LSAT i just feel too guilty not to be working
i have been crying at sappy commercials and sappy tv shows ( i even cried at enterprise, and i do not watch enterprise nor was i watching it, i was flipping the channels and saw it for 30 seconds and it was enough to make me cry)
i think i need a good cry
i mean a real sobbing for a few hours
it's not that i am sad, i am not, i seem to be in a chaotic blissfullness of the mundane
but my soul needs a good cry
an old friend told me that i have changed
perhaps i have... i feel a little bit more naive and way more jaded
i feel colder towards people, but much more ready to be caring
having a job has made me feel much more responsible and less selfish
i dont do it for the pay check
i do it because it is an amazing cause... and although that is what i have always wanted from a job, maybe i had my doubts if that would be enough
and it is
i wish i weren't sick so i could work
i wish i weren't sick so i could visit andreas
i was hoping to be there for him whenever rox has to work ( as it is she doesn't want to go to work, but i keep reminding her that she still has rent to pay); even though marcus is not sick, we are not risking him going to the hospital either. we cannot bring any viruses to andreas
while i love my weekends and my days off, i now know that i don't like not having anything to do for too long. I miss work.
it's been serene at home
marcus pampers me as if i were an invalid
last night we had one of those peaceful moments where i was doing the dishes and he was chopping veggies and we were just humming together
i'm coughing too much, i better lay down
|Wednesday, November 5th, 2003|
|'round here something radiates
busy busy busy!
yesterday was marcus's and mine 3 years and 9 months anniversary
i bought him some boxers brief *grin*
i love my job
today barbara was telling me about her old job
she was an excutive at nike
made 3 times more than she makes now
had a fancy car, huge office, 6 weeks off vacation, and fridays off
ooh and all the shoes she could get
i asked her why she left her job at nike
"At the end of the day, I was a sales man. I sold shoes. Here, at the end of the day, I save lives."
can I ask for more?
everyone who i work with has taken some form of pay cut.
its wonderful working with ppl who value ideals over monie Current Mood: calm
|Monday, November 3rd, 2003|
|my dream king
this is bad, this is very very bad
marcus just showed me this http://www.neilgaiman.com/journal/journal.asp
oh i am going to spend many many many hours reading, embibing, absorbing, dancing and sighing over every single word he has writen.
but not tonight
or any time this week
this one is for you kooky one
in exactly 2 hours marcus and i will have our 3 years and 9 months anniversary
at 12:08 am on the 4th of Feb, we said we loved each other for the first time :)
time just flies
|Sunday, November 2nd, 2003|
|Saturday, November 1st, 2003|
i keep having chest pains
they go away, but then they come back
|Goals for november:
quit chewing nails
quit chewing fingers
quit biting so much
Move beyond the oral stage *grin* Boy, Freud would have a field day with my obsessive habits.
lose weight ( dunno how, cuz i dont plan to diet or exercise, but somewho magically maybe it will happen)
keep sanity, or insanity... whatever i have i just need to remain stable for this month
its going to suck
but thats ok. Current Mood: calm
|Tuesday, October 21st, 2003|
i dont know why i am retarded and i cant do the banner
but if you click on it, it still works
if this doesnt work, i'll just updated it tonight when i get at home
i'm in a magnificent mood ( well other than i was very very very irate just as i read about terri)
yes i just contradicted myself, it's weird to be so ambivalent
ok back to work cuz this is fun! i actually enjoy creating contracts and coming up with proposals! I think i am good at it, which is a first since i never think i am good at anything
Terri was 26 years old when she suffered brain damage from a sudden collapse. Terri receives her food and water by means of a feeding tube. Terri’s other bodily functions are physically stable. Terri smiles, laughs and cries. Terri recognizes voices and responds. At times, she vocalizes sounds, trying in her best way to speak. Terri is not a brain dead vegetable as characterized by her husband and legal guardian, Michael Schiavo nor a houseplant as implied by his attorney. Terri is not on a respirator or any artificial life support. She is a living human being and needs to be granted an opportunity to recover. Terri has not had any progressive rehabilitation or arousal therapy in more than ten years.
In a trial initiated by Michael Schiavo, Circuit Court Judge, George W. Greer, issued a verdict delivered on February 11, 2000. Judge Greer granted authorization to discontinue Terri’s feeding tube. Judge Greer’s verdict will cause Terri to die in 10 to 14 days. Terri’s death will be by painful starvation.
In a malpractice lawsuit, Terri’s husband personally received over $300,000 for his loss of consortium. Terri was awarded $750,000 from this suit and an additional $250,000 from a separate malpractice lawsuit. The money was awarded to Terri for her care and rehabilitation and to be placed in a Medical Trust Fund. Terri’s husband received his personal award money and Terri’s medical fund money in early 1993. From the date he received the award money in 1993, Michael Schiavo has denied Terri any rehabilitation treatment. Michael Schiavo has confined Terri to a nursing home (currently, Terri is in a Hospice facility) where she is 'maintained.'
Her husband has directed that Terri only be sustained in a nursing home which is contrary to the intent of the award money. Michael Schiavo has on two occasions unsuccessfully attempted to end Terri’s life by instructing her caretakers not to medicate Terri for potentially fatal infections. The first occasion occurred less than nine months after her husband received the malpractice award money.
Terri has no will. Should she die, her husband will inherit what is left of Terri’s $750,000 medical fund.
Terri’s husband lives in a house with Jodi Centonze. He openly admits that he has been engaged to this women for over seven years, have recently given birth to a baby girl, and has announced plans to marry her when Terri is no longer alive.
Since receiving the award money in 1993, her husband has ceased and prohibited any new or aggressive treatment for Terri. He has only maintained Terri at a nursing home (currently, Terri is in a Hospice facility). He has totally ignored or denied rehabilitation therapy that could possibly assist Terri’s recovery.
Since 1993, Terri’s husband has consistently and deliberately withheld all medical information and data from Terri’s family. Over the past eight years he has ordered Terri’s caretakers not to reveal any medical or neurological information
Michael Schiavo will not permit any doctor to examine Terri other than the doctors he selects.
As Terri’s legal guardian, her husband has used her medical fund money to offset the legal costs when his guardianship of Terri was initially challenged and to pay the current legal costs to have Terri’s life ended.
Terri responds regularly to the presence of her parents and friends. Her husband's doctors testified Terri's cognizant responses to Terri’s parents and friends are simply a reflex action.